Seriously, I have been inspired - I need to go with it.
So my 7 year old daughter had 3 of her "bestest friends" over for her birthday last night. I don't know who enjoyed the evening more...Ella or myself...Okay well I guess she did. I just sat around and did a lot of reminiscing. I couldn't help myself. It was the conversation that was taking place on the drive to the movies that started it for me. All 4 of these girls were without a single care in the world. All I wanted to do was pull the car over, turn the radio down and have a heart to heart with these 1st graders. But what I wanted to say may have ruined, not only their night but their entire "growing up" years. Seriously. I mean, I wanted to tell them to enjoy each other now. To enjoy the friendship that they all have together. To really appreciate the simplicity of it and genuine honesty of it. To realize now that it isn't always going to be this easy. It isn't always going to be this fun. And it definitely isn't always going to be without drama. But I could just hear them now...after I finished my heart felt speech - "Mom~! Can you please turn the radio back up?!?!" Followed by instantaneous laughter. I snapped out of it after awhile and found myself giggling right along with them and wishing I was 7 all over again.
Life is difficult. Life is amazing. Life gets harder the older you get BUT life also gets more purposeful, more fulfilling, more adventurous, more EVERYTHING!
And to conclude....I had a different reason for starting this blog. I wanted to follow the "pack". I wanted my blog to look "professional". I wanted my blog to have a purpose. I wanted my blog to be somewhere someone could go in case they couldn't find any other blogs out there with crafts to do or new recipes to make. (you know anyone who has been living under a rock for the last (insert any time frame-really any will do) Also, the same people under this rock...the community of "rock dwellers" also may not know where to go to find other people's blogs who are all doing the same thing. And then I realized, all of the sudden, I was no longer excited about this blog. It had lost it's spunk to me and I started to put it off. Not really care so much about it. Not until just about 10 minutes ago, when I had this crazy thought. I want to do this for me. I don't care if it's perfect (it never will be) I don't care if it's ready (it never will be) and I don't care if anyone ever reads it. (that is an outright LIE!!!) I just want to do this because I WANT to do this. That's it. If I have time to share with you a recipe that I made and completely failed at - well I will. But I don't want to feel like I HAVE to...If I have to time to download all the pictures of and direction on a project I did...I will. When I can. So here it is...I'm putting it out there for all to see...there is nothing even close to perfect on here or about me or about my plans...I'm living by the seat of my jeggings!!!