Thursday, August 30, 2012

Don't Judge Me


So I have a bunch of randomness today!

First off...Ummm So I made this last night and it got gobbled up in seconds. It was deeeeelish!! Probably (Definitely not) the healthiest of choices but it was a easy peasy crock potter and that's what I needed.

 Winner Winner Chicken Salsa Dinner!! I added black beans like she suggested. I never knew that I liked black beans until I discovered Chipotle and I never knew I liked Chipotle until about a year ago. To think....all this time...I have been missing was really good. All my kids loved it. My husband, of course, had seconds. Highly recommend giving it a whirl. Oh...and I also did the homemade taco seasoning she suggested as well.

And can do this with the left overs....Double Nummmy!

You're welcome. ;-)

School has started and all seems to be going well with my crew. Landon and I are back in a routine and much to my surprise my oldest actually enjoys going to school!! I was a little concerned at first. He really seemed to be dreading going but after that first day he said, "I don't know what it is Mom. Everyone seems different this year. The kids, even the teachers!!" So I ask him in what way. His response: "It's hard to explain really. It's's like...everyone is HAPPY!! Even the teachers MOM!!" Well Holy BaJeezus!! WE have a miracle folks. I'm not naive though - it is only the first week of school. I just didn't want to ruin that for him.

We started working out again this week. It feels awesome. Like really good to be back at it. I'm sore again. I'm sleeping good at night. I sleep so much better when I work out. My body is just physically exhausted. Although, we did Body Pump (weight lifting) for the first time in two weeks on Tuesday. My husband said it was like setting the reset button. He was right. It was hard. I didn't feel strong like I did when I was consistently doing the classes before my kidney infection. Curse you infection of the kidneys. Curse you!!!

Ask and you shall receive. And I did...because my husband loves me...Or maybe he was just in a super good mood last weekend...Or maybe he wanted to get the hell out of Hobby Lobby with three kids and a wife that could do some serious damage in there. You know that chalkboard that I wanted with the fun, bright colored chalk markers. I got it!! And I love it..and I get so excited when I have to add something to the board. Like, really excited. : )

Isn't she lovely....Isn't she beautiful???

Go ahead...sing Stevie out loud now. You know you want to. Okay I know he is singing about the birth of a child, maybe even his child. Totally not the same....but maybe.

Today is my husbands birthday. Have I mentioned how much I love my husband? Because if I haven't you don't want me to start now. I do though. Like I love him so much sometimes it scares me. I cannot imagine my life without him. I know how blessed I am that God put him into my life and the lives of my children. I know that I could never find another human being like him. No one would ever love me the way he does. Ever. And I could not love someone else the same way that I love him. It's a rare love. It's a best friend love. It's a for real I didn't even know it existed soul mate love. I hope you have a wonderful birthday Jacobi. You deserve it. And okay fine, you can have a "birthday weekend" as much as I am against Birthday weekends and Birthday weeks...(seriously, grow up) And maybe even a "STPA" weekend...;-) I love you more than most!!

Love is a temporary madness,
it erupts like volcanoes and then subsides.
And when it subsides you have to make a decision.
Heart smiling...

You have to work out whether your roots have so entwined together
that it is inconceivable that you should ever part.

Because this is what love is.
Love is not breathlessness,
it is not excitement,
it is not the promulgation of eternal passion.

That is just being "in love" which any fool can do.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away,
and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.

Those that truly love, have roots that grow towards each other underground,
and when all the pretty blossom have fallen from their branches,
they find that they are one tree and not two.

Confession: I totally like the new Taylor Swift song. 'We Are Never Ever Ever Getting Back Together'
Like Ever.

I have a Pinterest Party to attend in like 4 weeks. I am so super duper, over the moon, excited about it. I don't even have a friggin' craft to make or know what I want to make yet...not another wreath...not another wreath...not another wreath....But I don't even care. Maybe I will do another wreath.

So um yeah sorry that I was all over the place but I had some time so I thought I would take advantage. And by time I mean I am putting off folding the towels, putting the clothes in the dryer, making my bed, emptying the dishwasher, cleaning my bathroom and sweeping the living room.What? Don't judge me. I can feel the judgement from here. Rude. 

Have a fantabulous week peeps!!

With Love,


Friday, August 24, 2012

Beautiful and Bittersweet

Beautiful and Bittersweet - this growing up business.
 A 2nd grader and a 5th grader. Where has the time gone? 
My heart wants it all to slow down... 
But my brain knows it's not happening.

I was crying as I typed that as my Facebook status last night. And I had so much more to say but FB wasn't really the place to do it.  So I thought I would extend that thought here. I can't believe it's been over a month since I have come here to write. I mean normally I have to be moved by something to write. Inspired, I suppose. Inspired by sadness. Moved by happiness. Motivated by anger. Compelled by something. Anything. Or maybe I have just been lazy. If this blog ever feels like something I "have" to do. I won't do it anymore. Which is kinda why I love it. I can do what I want with it...and you can't stop me. Nah Na Nah Na Boo Boo!! I digress...

I think the most difficult thing for me is having a 10 year old boy and a 2 year old boy. Landon constantly reminds me of Jackson when he was little. Snuggling in bed with me. Raising his arms and and saying "hold you", when he wants to be held. Jackson holding just my single finger with his entire little hand. I try so hard to find contentment with the older version of Jackson. I look really hard for things that I can cherish now that I couldn't when he was younger. But those things are just so different. There is so much less need there. Other than help with math homework (and really we all know my husband comes in to play here) and an occasional desire to snuggle with me when he gets home from his Dads house. I just can't seem to find it. I know its there but I can't seem to find something to grasp on to. To make me feel satisfied that he still needs me just as much as he did when he was younger. I'm still learning as I go. I have never had a 10 year old or a 5th grader before. This is all new to me. I will constantly be learning and evolving and that's okay. 

In other news: 

I had a freaking Kidney Infection. I say "freaking" because I would rather say "fracking" and eventually get to what I really mean...if you know what I mean.  However, my mother in law reads this blog infrequently so...I have to respect that. But Damn!!!! Those kidney infections hurt like a mofo!! I have never had one and I never want one again. I also was sure it wasn't one. I didn't have the normal bladder infection symptoms that usually preface a kidney infection (or so I thought). I rarely drink soda. In fact, I was sure I pulled a muscle. I had added more weights to my back in Body Pump that week and I had done another cardio class that involved "throwing" around medicine balls and I specifically remember turning to my SIL and saying, "That hurts my back". This just goes to show you that we really don't know shite about our health. Our bodies. Go to the doctor. Get your stuff checked out. Better safe than sorry.  P.S. Ummm....although I felt like I was in crack whoreville at the ER, that really blunt doctor with the horrible bedside manner gave me some wonderful medicine in my IV to make the pain go away, even if just but for an hour...I as in the land of Unicorns and purple clouds. 

* I have already lost sleep trying to figure out what I want to be for Halloween this year. This is serious business people. 

* I have not been able to work out for two weeks. TWO WEEKS!! Holy Balls! That is like forever and I cannot wait to get back at it Monday. And I love that I can't wait to get back at it!! 

* I now desperately want a big chalk board with colored chalk markers. Like, I'm pretty sure I'm going to need them before school starts just for me to get all organized. (thanks Crystal and Lisa) 

* I have officially run out of kids want the computer, Landon is running around  the house (with a red ring pop I might add) And Jackson is a good for nothing babysitter. 

The End.