I was trying to sum up last week/weekend and I had so many different emotions used to describe it, too many...but most of them began with full. Full of empathy, full of hope, full of tears, full of screaming, full of anger, full of peace, full of happiness, full of love, full of laughter, full of accomplishment, full of life.
My week was FULL. : )
Our week started with a trip to the doctor. Is he wheezing or rattling?? Seriously, I have no idea nice nurse lady trying to help me. No idea. He's definitely rattling...no, no, he's definitely wheezing...okay screw it...better safe than sorry.
Landon has bad allergies. This time they triggered a little asthma. Nothing big. Under control now. He takes his treatments like a champ. Oh and by the way, he was WHEEZING. Also, I would like for you to meet Peanut Butter Po - The Panda Bear.
My week included a funeral. I'm not going to go into detail about that funeral, it's not my place. But I will say that I'm glad I went. I can't say for certain that I brought comfort to anybody there but I could feel Gods presence all around. He undoubtedly gave me the peace I needed. I hope he comforted the family the way he comforted me. My hope is that they felt His presence as strongly as I did. I hope they continue to feel Him and His comfort.
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. - John 14:27
That day did have me reflecting on my life. Thankful for so many things. Reminded me of things that I already knew but had forgotten. Mostly, it made me thankful. I am thankful that it wasn't me going through it. I have been there, I have grieved for the loss of my father. I am still standing. I still experience joy every day. I hope I can be a glimmer of hope. I'm thankful that I can be here for her now. For anyone that has to go through this. I am thankful for that. I am thankful for my mother. My sister. My beautiful family. My healthy, beautiful family. My friends. My husband. My life. I dealt with asthma...she dealt with loss. I'm thankful for perspective.
Somewhere in there my husband I celebrated our 4 year anniversary. We have been together for almost 7 years. I can't believe it's been 7 years. There are so many things that happened in our lives up until we met. So many, small, unnoticeable, insignificant things that led us up to that day. That led us to here. I can't help but think that if none of them or even one of those "not so insignificant" moments didn't happen in our life - where would we be. But I'm not sure you could convince me we still wouldn't be in this beautiful place we are in now. I just can't fathom God having any other plan for me than Jacob. What a perfect plan it is turning out to be.